Be Still

I've been kind of mopey as of late. OK. As of . . . a few months? Years?

I think I've just been getting antsy, feeling like I'm not getting any younger, and yet, what have I made of my life.

I try to console myself saying that I have an amazing family - a beautiful wife, and a beautiful daughter. A family that many might even envy. And for that I am proud. Yet, I look at my career life and accomplishments, and can't help but feel a sense of, well, lack of accomplishment.

Tonight, I had an amazing opportunity to process this with Linda once again. And as we were talking, I got this picture in my mind of God as this master artist - think DaVinci or Michelangelo but greater. And I'm sitting for him as he paints a masterpiece portrait of me. Thing is, I can't sit still. As he's painting, I keep moving around, trying to peek around the canvas and see what he's doing. He, being the master that he is of course, continues to paint. But I just sense him telling me, "Would you please just sit still. It would make things a whole lot easier, and things would go much quicker. You will see the masterpiece in time. Just relax. Trust me."

So here I am again. Back to sitting and waiting. It is a recurring theme in my life. And I think that until I learn the lesson, it's going to keep coming back. Waiting and being still is such a hard thing.

I can't help but feel like I should be doing something, that I need to help with the painting in some way. But really, there's nothing I can do. Reminds me of something that someone said to me once, "There is no shame in waiting on the Lord."

So, Lord. I wait. I wait. I wait. I look forward to seeing the completed masterpiece. But until then, I will sit and wait.

Thoughts

Hey Friends,

Does anyone still read this?

Well, on the off chance that someone does, here's a new post for you. =)

I'm... antsy.

God is doing some major stuff in our lives. And there are some amazing things on the horizon. I truly believe it. But I'm antsy. I want it now.

Also, I'm dying to do some singing and dancing. Yet... don't know where a good outlet would be?

Also, OK. I think here's the key to where this all started.

I started watching Glee a few months ago. Such a fun show. If you haven't watched it, you could check it out. I don't agree with many of the morals on the show, but the music is great.

Anyway... so I saw that the Fox network is potentially going to have open casting calls for the show starting ... sometime soon. And I of course, would love to audition. Though... don't know if I can.

Well, I was doing some surfing and I came across a bunch of videos of others who had the same idea that I did. One in particular was of an Asian dude. And it was really super cool. Really well edited, and he's got a great voice. And well, that just got me feeling kind of inferior.

I know it's silly. But, I don't know.

Anyway... so i started itching. Itching to perform to sing, to do something . . .

but what?!

new blog

Hey Friends,

So I've started a new project.

Some of you know that Linda and I have recently set out on a new venture.
It's one that has been a big challenge, but one that I believe will reap big rewards in the end.

In the process of building this thing up, I've learned about myself and life and come across some nuggets of wisdom. I've also had some obstacles to overcome.

While learning and dealing with the struggles, I realized that there were probably others out there in the same boat. So in an effort to encourage others and a bit for self-medication =) I decided to start a new blog.

I'll definitely keep this one going, so that y'all know the comings and goings of Linda and I.

But if you need some encouragement, or if you know any dreamers out there who need a little push. You can go or send them to www.infinitelymorethanyoucanaskorimagine.blogspot.com

Long name, I know. But everything else I wanted was taken. And I felt that it was a great name for a blog about dreams.

Anyway, check it out and e-mail me if you've got questions!

Definitely excuse any typos or stylistic faux pas or misplaced/lack of punctuation.

Campbell

30, Quirky and Jiving

So here I sit on the brink of my 30th.

Hard to really wrap my mind around it.

I don't know what it is about 30. I mean it's just another number right? And October 9, 2009, is a day like any other day, no?

But for me it's different. It's something I've been looking forward to and anticipating for awhile.

I've heard so many different reactions to turning 30. Some have embraced it and say they can't wait to start their 30s. Otherwise get really depressed about the age.

Me, I'm excited. I feel like this new decade I'm entering into will be great. I feel like the 20s was full of me trying to figure out who I am, and what I want to do with my life. It was me testing the waters and flitting about. But as I enter into my 30s I feel like I'm a bit more settled, a bit more mature, a bit more steady.

Don't get me wrong, I'm still flighty and immature in many ways, and I still have much to learn, but I look forward to the 30s feeling like it's going to be a decade when many major decisions will be behind me and I can just stabilize my life.

Of course, I really have no idea what will happen in the future. I can only hope and dream. =)

As I enter into this new decade, I want to take a few moments to thank God for the many, many blessings that he's bestowed on me over the past 30 years.

1. His LOVE, and GRACE.

Truly, knowing that God loves me is the best thing. Not only knowing, it but, truly understanding it. It has set me free. And his grace has gotten me out of more messes than I even know. So many times, I feel like, Man, I'm in deep doodoo, but he always saves me.

2. Linda

Linda has been such a stabilizing force in my life. She's my best friend, and my best helper and support. When I am exhausted from a long day, being with her recharges me. She is God's gift to me.

3. My parents

I haven't always appreciated my parents. But the older I get, the more I realize, just how blessed I am to have my mom and dad. They are full of wisdom and their love for God is so strong and evident. Also, I appreciate and am so thankful for their prayers over Linda and I. I firmly believe that those prayers have played a major part in leading me to where I am today. Also because of their faithfulness to the Lord, Linda and I are reaping the blessings.

4. My dear friends.

All of you are more like family to me than friends. I cherish each relationship I have with every one of you, and you all bless me in many different ways. Growing up I had a hard time connecting with people and making friends, but over the past few years, God has filled my cup to overflowing with so many good, loving, wonderful people in my life. I appreciate each of you more than I could ever express.

5. Gifts, talents and opportunities

I have had a full life. Not only a full life but a colorful life.

I have done more and experienced more in my 30 years than many people have done in a lifetime. I definitely credit that to following the Lord. Really friends, if you don't know already, committing your way to the Lord, allowing him to lead you and direct your paths, you will see and do more things that you could ever ask for or imagine, it's amazing.

6. Security

Having God in my life brings me a strong sense of security. I know that he loves me, and that he loves Linda, and that no matter what happens, as long as we're walking with him and living in his will, it will all work out for the good. I love being able to revel in the joy of knowing that even though things may not go as I plan, that I know HE'S got the perfect plan, so I can rejoice in that.

30 is going to be an amazing decade. I know. And I look forward to it with strong anticipation and joy.

LOVE YOU ALL!

About Time

OK, so we haven't blogged in like . . . forever.
SORRY!

I had a few moments tonight, so I thought I'd shoot a quick update for those of you who still check. =)

Yesterday, was a big day for feeling blessed.

We started the morning in chapel and one of our old co-workers Adele shared with everyone about the time she spent in Africa. WOW. What an eye opener.

I mean here's the thing, I've heard these talks before, I've seen pictures, and I know the facts. I am rich. Maybe I'm not rich, in the fact that I can't just go out and buy whatever I want. However, the fact that I can pretty much go out and just buy something to eat if I'm hungry, or the fact that I have an nice apartment to live in with running water, electricity, etc... or the fact that I can afford to fly home once a year. By the standards of a large majority of the world, I am rich.

Back to chapel, the stuff Adele shared really just broke my heart and amazed me. She shared with us about a family of four children whose father was a drunk and whose mother was no longer around. I forget whether she died, or she ran off, anyway, basically these kids were left to fend for themselves. When Adele found them, they were infested with jiggers, which are little flees that burrow into your skin and lay eggs. (She showed pictures, and yes it is gross.) Anyway, Adele basically loved on these kids. She helped to clean these flees out of the kids legs and feet. And she bought them new sheets and just basically took care of them. It really turned their life around. Now the dad has a steady job, is no longer a drunk. Adele shared that this dad shared with one of Adele's co-workers that "Adele helped her children to become human again." Amazing. God really used Adele to show his love to these kids.

Adele also shared other pictures of orphans that she worked with, and tribes who take care of cattle and just basically live outside with no running water, whose kids have the job of collecting the cow dung and piling it up to burn, so they can sleep in the ashes to keep bugs away. Seriously. Like I said, eye-opening.

I mean saying all of this, I may sound like an ignoramus, living up in my ivory tower. But like I said, I've heard the talks, and I've known about the suffering, but to look at pictures it brings things to light in a very different way.

Anyway, after having that chapel in the morning, I had another eye-opening experience in the evening when Linda and I and a few of our friends went to see "Slumdog Millionaire." Great movie by the way for those of you who haven't seen it. But be forewarned, there's lots of violence, so if you have a weak heart, maybe don't go see it. Anyway, again seeing the squalor and conditions that these kids grew up in. And just the danger they faced with the people who wanted to exploit them. I really just felt again very BLESSED.

All I have to say is, DADDY, THANK YOU! I know I did nothing to deserve the lot in life that you have placed me in. I know it is only by your grace and mercy that I have the things that I have, and I ask your forgiveness for complaining and being dissatisfied. And I ask your forgiveness for not taking advantage of all the things that you have given to me, and for even wasting many of the resources that you have so lavishly poured out into my life. I ask that you would help me to use every resource, every gift you give to me wisely. May I not squander any of it. And may I learn to be content and use what I have to bless others.

Matthew the Nephew

Everyone, meet our nephew, Matthew! He's Linda's oldest sister's son. Ain't he a handsome?

Broadway Academy Part II

Hi everyone!

It's Campbell here. Sorry it's been awhile since I've updated. Lots has happened since my last entry. I'll start where I left off.

The Broadway Academy was awesome. I had the time of my life singing, dancing and acting. It was also good to meet different people and make new friends. It was an intensive week of rehearsing and performing, but I loved every minute of it. The camp ran for about 12 hours every day for 8 days. So it was intense, as I said. But I had a great time.

We worked on music from Rent and guys and Dolls during the week and then we had a gala performance at the end of the week to show what we did. Here are some photos from that performance. 

At the start of our show 4 of our teachers gave a performance. They sang a number together and then 3 of them sang solos.

(The fourth teacher is playing the piano.)

Then it was our turn. We started off with a few of us singing a medley of Broadway songs. Here I am singing, "Out There" from The Hunchback of Notre Dame (Not exactly a Broadway show, but it worked.) =) 

After the cabaret, all the students came on stage and we sang a medley of songs from Rent. I really liked that. I got to sing some songs that I've really liked since High School. 

After the Rent medley we had an intermission. Then it was time for Guys and Dolls. We did a abridged version of the show. God blessed me with one of the leading roles in this part. I played Sky Masterson. I got to dance, and sing a couple of solos. I loved it. 

Here's me and my leading lady. =) 

This is us and my teachers. There were five teachers total. You see the fifth teacher between Linda and I. 

There are a lot more photos. But I think that's enough for now. =) I'm super thankful for the opportunity to go to this camp. I learned a lot and had a great time.